26 October, 1998

Up and Up

Despite the blood test today.
Despite continuing to be behind.
Despite having no idea what state the checkbook is in.
Despite it all.

I am insanely happy today.
Mad on life. High on life.

I sit here listening to one of my favorite songs on repeat play.
And jam in front of the office computer.

All of a sudden I just don't care about all the things which have been bothering me and worrying me to death for the past few days.

There is a beautiful day out there waiting to be lived.

And I'd be fool not to go out there and live it.

Everything is suddenly so very clear.

It's another awakening.

The layers of sleep in every human being are so deep.

Just when you think you're finally completely awake, you wake up again and find that you were still asleep.

In other news, L.L. Bean ran out of the jacket I wanted which was supposed to ship today. It is cooler out and I really need a lightweight jacket for the fall. I have a wonderful winter coat, but I have nothing but sweaters to get me through the rest of the Fall. It's going to start raining soon and that is not good. So I ordered a men's size instead of women's. Hopefully it will fit right. At least they had the one I wanted in stock in men's!

I'm finding Foucault's Discipline & Punish to be fascinating in a gruesome sort of way. I was warned that Foucault was difficult to read, but so far everything he's said has made perfect sense. I can't figure out if it's just because my mind works in a similar way or if I'm just deluding myself. We'll see what the class discussion on the book tomorrow yields ...

In the meantime it's back to Irish history and the Fenian brotherhood.

And tonight ... who knows what tonight will bring.

Again, a confirmed nightowl am I and I need to figure out a way to work with that concept ...